Well this is my first post and instead of giving some apology for how boring it may be or what not, you can read it or skip to the next one but I'm just in an irritated mood at the moment so here goes. I'm sitting here as a re-run of Gilmore Girls is on in the background. It's the episode where Rory drops out of Yale and begins to work with her grandmother. And honestly, the more I listen to the ridiculous comments going on about Rory being a "woman of mystery and intrigue" the more it annoys me. Granted it's just a TV show but come one. Being a recent graduate from Rutgers, I am under the constant stress of realizing that my undergraduate career is over. O-V-E-R. It's nerve racking especially since I can't find a job and while the people that surround me on a daily basis (my co-workers for the most part) tell me "Oh, everyone is in your position. You'll find something, don't worry", all I want to do is scream. Ok, I get it, it's annoying listening to me whine and complain that out of the ten or so applications I sent out I heard back from one, a rejection none the less, but must they constantly tell me that? I mean honestly I've spent the past four years busting my ass to graduate, switched majors three times, studied abroad and on May 16th I sat for three and a half hours all for the one minute of walking on stage to shake some random persons hand, who I didn't even know existed until about two hours and forty minutes into the whole event for a piece of paper that wasn't even my diploma.
Okay, so here we have a recent graduate with no full-time job prospect who has just become aware that she will be paying not only her gas but car insurance, cell phone bill, gym membership, riding lessons, horse shows and to top it off! My health insurance is about to expire. So way to go Alex, you've completed another step in your education/life and now here's financial responsibility on a silver platter. That silver platter being my maybe $350 bi weekly pay check from my part time job. Yes.
Granted, many people I graduated were hired as soon as they graduated and I am ecstatic for them but just because I couldn't figure out what I wanted to do: Teach, editorial assistant, journalist, free thinker doesn't mean I don't have a plan...I did. Law School. And now that dream is shot down, turning into the five maybe ten year plan. It's all just a mess out there and the more applications I put out the further I run in the opposite direction. And that opposite directions is bringing me head first towards the Indonesia teaching position.
